So, here I am at Hofstra, and I am blogging all of my random and jumbled thoughts. Hopefully it will make somewhat sense.
Writing online makes me feel vulnerable. People are able to see my thoughts because it would be all out in the open. They are able to judge what I say, and might be able to use it against me. Once something is on the internet, it is hard to get rid of. The internet is forever. Even if you try to delete it, it never really goes away.
At the same time, you know that you are not really alone with the internet. There is somebody out there that can maybe relate to you. No one wants to feel alone. That is probably why so many people love social media so much. They are able to connect with other people, no matter where they are. People just want to connect and belong.
There are no limitations of what you can say/write on the internet. Which is probably why you should take whatever you read on the internet with a grain of salt. And do not believe everything you read.
There is so much more I would like to write, but I just don’t know how to put them into words.
I feel very similarly to you in this matter. I think to foray into the world that exists on the internet is to leave behind a lot of social constructs and norms for better or for worse. The idea that what we say here is permanent in some way is scary but at the same time exhilarating because it makes you want to stumble running forward to publish your work but at the same time hesitate over the implications of that work in your non-digital world. I really understand what you are saying when you put out the idea that you have so much to say, but that the words are not there. For the constructive criticism portion of this comment, I will give you the same advice I’m giving myself which is to keep editing your work and coming back to it, but also looking for new ways to write. I think a big reason why I feel like I don’t have words is because my writing style hasn’t change for years and the mold I once made for myself no longer fits the new me. Awesome job!!!
I don’t have enough words to express how relatable the feelings you convey in your post truly are. In writing anything, your work becomes a part of you; it holds your secretes, opinions, passion, and most importantly time. Writers pour our souls into our work and sharing our writing with anyone exposes us to extreme vulnerability. When writing on a blog, you may have an intended audience in mind for your readership, but the matter is that anyone can access your work once it is published on the internet. That thought alone, whether it actually becomes a reality or not, takes the level of exposure up ten notches.
The responsibility of posting online is intense, yet in the twenty-first century, it is nearly inescapable. Everyone wants to have their voice heard, whether they believe in it or not, which creates a toxic environment on the internet. As unfortunate as it can be that others are not always their authentic selves online, it is important to always be yours. Just be sure to protect yourself as you unravel the chaos in your head.